Oh, to be a wee one again

Now that would be alright

To be carefree with squeals of delight

Free from the illness that plagues ones life

No dark clouds on the horizon wild

Oh, the joys of being a child

Never an intruder of the mind

Life is not always kind

Moving forward it is time

On to conquering the night

Fighting for one's life

Oh, to be a tyke forever more

Catch Up

Sorry, friends.. It has been a long time since I've blogged! So much has happened.. Good things, not so good, hard times, and good times. These last couple months have been different.. We can just say that grief has really hit me and it's been very hard.
I'm out of classes for the summer. I'm so happy to be on summer break. School was getting exhausting the last couple weeks. I took 15 credit hours and I made it. :) Those credit hours were a little different than what I was use to. Leaning about the human body, pharmacology, and diseases it a little harder. Microbiology was my favorite class. Wow, I learned so much.
Stanley graduated from Radford University with a major in Biology and a minor in Chemistry. I was very proud of him. He starts working on his BSN degree this fall. He will be working on his degree for about 4 years. He plans to go on and get his Doctorate in Nursing. We both have a lot of school ahead of us! :) It is important to both of us. I got accepted into the "Surgical Technology" program. It is a 15 month program that I start this fall. I have orientation coming up soon. I was surprised that I got in. They only accepted about 15-20 students and over 60 students applied. I was very happy. It's nice to have achieved the first step in my goal.
I'm still working at the daycare. I've been working full time since school has been out. I'm helping in the kitchen, doing lunches, working in classrooms, and then go aid in our SAC area. I love working at North Kids! It's a great, Christian place to work. I'm hoping to volunteer at the hospital this summer. I'm hoping to get my foot in the door and end up with a job! :) I would love to work in a hospital. I've also thought about shadowing some this summer.
I'm looking forward to my summer. I love camp time.  I've already taken the week of youth camp off. Stan will be there all week as a team leader. I wouldn't miss youth camp! :) I have some goals to accomplish and just to relax. I won't have a life once I go back to school.
We have a new addition to our family. A beautiful German Shepherd pup. Her name is Moka Vans Wiford! :) And, not that is not pronounced like a family "van" that you ride around in. It's completely German.. Even our last name! She is such a good and smart pup. We love her dearly.
Have a blessed week!

Quick Note

I actually have time to blog more than once in a week or months. I have some free time between classes and decided to take a break. My online "Medical Law & Ethics" class meets once a month. We all have to do presentations in the class. Since, my last name is Wiford. I'm at the bottom!! :) For once I'm happy to be at the bottom of the alaphabet. Gives me more time to prepare and come up with material. I throughly enjoyed the presentations. Medical Law and Ethics coveres a lot of "touche" subjects in the health care. One gal did a presentation on genetic engerinering. Wow! That is a crazy subject. You are able to pick or delete what genes you want your child to have. You could pick down to the eye and hair color. There is a lot of cons to the subject though. Your baby becomes more like an object. Similar to going to Wal-Mart and picking out the best baby you want out of the options. There may be more of a positive light to it. If the parents first child has some type of disease the parents can "genetically engineer" a baby. They would use the cord and tissue from the second baby to help cure the disease of the first baby. I want to do more research in this topic. I know where I stand on the subject, but I think I need to do more research.
I am doing my subject on "Hospice Care" since Grandpa and Uncle Stephen both were under hospice care before they died. Mine is not due till the last week of April.
I am striving to get all "A's". It can be tough! I'm not doing too bad, yet. I hope I can do it. Taking 15 credit hours this semester can make life hetic. My homework is never ending. But, I'm doing good and getting things done on time. Teachers for some reason like to give busy work.
My favorite class of the semester is Microbiology! Wow! This class has changed me! Now more than ever do I believe in the Germ Theory. I'll post more about that later! I have to head off to class! Have a great Wednesday!

V-Day Pictures

Roses from Stan the Man!

One of my V-Day gifts! He knows me well! :)

 

 

 

 

 

Catching Up....

Life has been busy. I've been wanting to write for forever, but I just haven't had the time. I really should be working on homework right now. :) Life is going good. I'm just keeping so busy with schoolwork and work. I enjoy all my classes this semester! I'm learning so much and I enjoy them all. Work is going great. I'm working with the school age children and also with the Pre-K children. I love the Pre-K's! They are so sweet. I am also babysitting some on weekday mornings.I'm thankful that I have a job.
Stan and I are doing great. He was able to come and visit last week. We had a wonderful time! ;) Our spring breaks our at the same time, so we get to spend some time together next month! Even though rumor has it we are engaged; I can honestly say we are not. We both have school left and our future depends on our schooling and whether we get in to our different programs.
God is good. He provides, protects, loves, and cares for me! Life is good.. God is good all the time!
Hope you have a wonderful weekend!!

Being Thankful

 

With thanksgiving approaching very soon, I have been thinking about all my many blessings and everything I am thankful for. Yes, they are things that I could grumble or be discouraged about. But, when I look at all my many blessings I really have so much to be thankful for. The last couple days I have been thinking about all that I'm thankful for and I want to share my list with you! :)

1. I am thankful for Jesus. He is very best friend and He is always there for me. He is always so patient with me! I am thankful that He willing gave His life that I might have life forever more.

2. I am so thankful for my family! I have great parents and siblings. I am blessed to have been raised in a Christian home. When I look at all my friends and the lives they have had, it makes me even more thankful for my family.

3. I am thankful for Grace Holiness Church. I have the best church family ever! I am so blessed to learn under the Bakers and Sis. Brenda Leach. I am so blessed with an awesome church family!

4. I am thankful for my job! :) It might not have been what I first desired, but God knew what I needed. I don't have to work any weekends and it's great to work at a Christian facility.

5. I am thankful for my little car!! :) Even thought it always seems to be getting new scratches or etc. I have a car and it gets great gas mileage!

6. I am thankful for good health. I have learned about so many different sicknesses and diseases this year in my classes. There is so many different things that could be wrong with my body, but I have good health. There is so many people suffering out there. I am blessed.

7. I am thankful for housing, clothes, and food. Even though I am still living at home. I am thankful that my parents still let me live at home! :) 

8. I am thankful for education. I am thankful that I am able to attend school and expand my learning.

9. I am thankful for my best friend Sarah. Wow, I could say so much here. She is a great friend, listener, and encourager. I can trust her with anything. She has been such a great friend and has been there for me countless times! I am also thankful for my countless other friends, too!! You are blessings from God!!

10. I am thankful for Stanley!! :) I am thankful for how God brought us back together. He is a great friend, listener, and encourager. He is so sweet, caring, and gentle. He is an amazing boyfriend and I am so blessed to have him!!

Always be thankful! If you are feeling down or discouraged remember that someone else out there has it worse than you. Count your blessings this thanksgiving season!! The Bible commands us to be thankful and content! Chose to be thankful!!

The last couple weeks...

The last couple weeks have been crazy and stressful. Life, school, and work keeps me so busy these days. This is the first night that I have been able to sit down and relax!! :) The craziness of midterms is behind me! I was able to go to Youth Challenge. I had to work that Friday so I drove up after work. I made it for the closing of the service and was there for the afterglow, which was great. I went back to GBS to stay with a good friend. It was my first time in Cinci since graduation. It was great to go back! :) I didn't get in till about midnight and left halfway early the next morning, so I didn't really get to much of anyone or the campus. I was actually dreading going to Youth Challenge and back to Cinci. I figured it would be hard on me with it being the first time going back since Cort and I broke up. I figured I would be overwhelmed with memories, but I was okay. In some ways that seems forever ago and sometimes it seems like it never happened. I guess that is what time does. We also had Homecoming on the 30th of October. I was in junior church that Sunday morning. I was able to help with the dinner and be there for the Memorial Service though.
Last week we had Revival at church. I was able to attend every night. There could been nights were I could've staid home to study, but I had such an overwhelming desire to be in God's house that I did not want to miss a service. We had a good revival.
School has been great and crazy. I have had lots of papers due and I had three lab test in a row. I can say that I can almost name all 206 bones that our in the human body! :) I have the most trouble remembering the skull bones. Last week we started dissecting cats! I thought I would have a hard time with that since I am an avid cat lover. It went great. The smell gets a little overwhelming though. We had to cut off all the fat. And, that cat was fat. I have no clue what his master feed him, but he was one fat pussy cat. We located the major muscles in the skull, shoulder, and thoracic. We will keep our cat and continue to work on them. I have one big research paper due in English, but I'm going to use a research paper that I turned in for another class. I have to change some stuff around and add some more but it should save me a lot of work.
Stanley and I are doing great!! :) He will be coming in a week from Friday. I can not wait!! It has been over a month since I have seen him!! I'm doing better with the whole long distance relationship thing than I thought. It is a lot different than just two hours or across campus. And, I thought I had it bad then. I just hope that he gets into PA school up here. It never ceases to amaze me how God brought us back together. And, I know that we can make it!
Have a blessed week!

It's been forever since I have blogged! A lot of water has went under the bridge! I finally purchased a car after many weeks of endless searching. I am happy with my purchase. It's cute, compact car.. And, it gets great gas mileage!! :)
My relationship status has changed. I am dating again. I would not have maybe planned it this way or would have ever guessed it would happen this way. I can't say it was easy at first. I had a lot of emotions, feelings, memories, and etc to work through and still do. Breaking up with someone is never easy no matter if it is the right thing to do. Even though I was as ready for it as I possibly could be. I knew it the breakup was coming, but it doesn't erase the hurt or the guilt that I felt. I felt so guilty for hurting someone. Especially, after I started dating so soon again. I struggled and wrestled with it, I did not want to hurt him or his family more than I already had. But, I can not choose God's timing or how He works. Why Stan and I did not get together at a different time I don't know? Why I did not agonize and do some real soul searching about my past relationship earlier? I know that it was when I truly came home and got away that I did some praying. I had been troubled for awhile though.
I literally feel like my last year and half has been on the biggest roller coaster of my life. My security has been ripped away. I have fears that I am trying to overcome and the Devil fights. But, God has been faithful!! His Word encourages me! Listening to good Christian music has been an great encouragement. I receive strength from attending church and mingling with other believers! I am blessed!
Keep me in your prayers!

Psalms 73: 25 - 26
Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon the earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

First Day...

School has officially begun for me. I attended my first classes at Ivy Tech today. They went great! So far I like my teachers and my classes! :) It might seem challenging or slightly overwhelming, but I have done this before and I was successful. I know GBS was different classes, but the work load is still the same. It's just in a totally different field. The only pressure I have is to try and make all "A's".
I am still working at the daycare. I am only working in the afternoon now. It looks like it's going to work out great.
I am still car shopping. One reason why I haven't purchased one yet is because I'm waiting for the loan to come through. As of right now I am going to borrow the Bakers until I purchase my own.
I have a lot to do in the next couple weeks. I like to have everything planned out and to have stuff done. But, it takes time. I have to learn to just be patient! :)

Field Trip Pictures

It's #18!! Manning himself

The Colt's out on the field

North Kids posing before heading in to watch the Colt's

I finally have the energy to blog again!! :) I'm usually so tired when I get home from work that I do not feel like writing anything. This week has been tiring, but I don't feel too bad tonight. Maybe, it's because I know tomorrow is Friday!
Work has been going great. You see all kinds of different behaviours and siuations. Some of them are sad, disturbing, and funny. I work with another cool teacher. We get along great. We just have those great moments when you look at each other and just laugh like crazy. I love how we can read each others minds. Her last day is next Friday and I am really going to miss her.We have went on to field trips this week. One was the Indy Childrens Museum and the other one was to see the Colt's practice at AU. That was fun and yet boring for the kids after like ten mintues.
I have so much to do before school starts. I still have sorting to do in my room and re-arranging. I need to buy books and get a car. Dad and I have been doing some car shopping. I have to have one before I start school, so that is exciting. I also new a laptop and a new cellphone sometime soon!! Ah, all these big purchases.. It will happen in time!! :)
Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!!

Recent Pictures

Enjoying the nice weather on the back patio

Jackson and Jenson

Me and the boys on one of my last days to watch them.. I love those guys!

Me and Austin! He is such a sweet and happy baby!

The Colts are coming to train at AU. This is me in front of the NFL Officials go-cart :)

Leeland and I.

Recently....

The last couple weeks have been crazy!! I did finally get a job! :) I'm working at a day care. I help out with the school age kids! This has been my first full week. It has been great. I'm loving it so far. Yes, the days can get long and tiring. We usually have over twenty kids every day. Just after working there for a few days, you can pick up on the bullies, the good kids, the ones that are craving attention, and etc. I know there is a reason for the way they act. I'm wanting to take a class on child psychology. Maybe, I can squeeze in my schedule somewhere.
We are getting new carpet at church, so this week has been crazy. I haven't hardly seen my Dad all week. Plus, I don't get home till about six or after every evening.
Life is going good and it's getting better. It takes time to work through relationships. I still have the haunting memories. Which isn't all bad. My memories are good and maybe that is why it is so hard sometimes to move on.
I am doing junior church Sunday! I'm really excited about that. We are talking about David right now. Because, in a couple weeks we are going to do a program on the "Twenty-Third Psalm". It's about a twelve week course. So, we want the kids to know about the author. My lesson Sunday is when he becomes king. I already have tons of brain storms. I hope it goes ok. I think I am going to go to Burger King and see if they'll give me a bunch of their crowns. I'm going to "make" a throne. For the memory game, whichever kid answers the question correctly he can come up front and sit on the throne. I'm hoping to have a crown, scepter, and I'll probably take a bathrobe for the royal garments. :)
My newest endeavour is to lose weight... I know you're prob thinking, she doesn't need to lose weight but I do. I put on thirteen pounds my last semester at GBS. And, I've come to realize that it is very hard to get off. I've lost 7 pounds, but I'm having a hard time getting the rest off. But, I am determined to lose it!!! I just want to get this weight off. I can't put anymore on. I've been walking almost every day. I usually walk for twenty to thirty minutes. I'm hoping to start running soon. I'm really wanting to get into tennis, too. So, we will see!
Anyway, hope y'all have a great weekend!!!

Excitement!!

Ah, I am so excited!! And, I need to let it out!! :) I was board appointed as assistance junior church leader. I am thrilled beyond words! If there is any calling or ministry that I have a great passion for, it is with children.
I am just so thankful that God opened this door in my life. I love my kids and I want to see them get saved and make it to Heaven. I get to learn under some of the best. Brenda Leach and Barbara Baker are the best to learn under. I am just so excited.
I know God has allowed this for a reason. It's an affirmation to me that my passion for children's ministry is God's doing and not my own selfish interest.
I also know that it is a great responsibility. I can only do it with the Lord's strength and help. I am dependant upon Him!
I am excited about what God is doing in my life and where He is leading me! I can't wait to see what He does with my life.

Hope you had a wonderful weekend! I sure did! It was more of a relaxing weekend which was nice!
We got invited out for Sunday meal, so that was nice. No extra cooking for Mom and I!! :)
I am doing some babysitting this week. Both of the boys are sleeping now. I love naptime! :) I had a new record. I got Jackson asleep in ten minutes. It only took about 3 books! I think that is the quickest he has fallen asleep for me.
Our church starts VBS this week. I plan to be there as much as I can to help. Since, I am babysitting three days this week, I'll probably be late all those nights. I know I will be tonight. I am hoping that we will get some new contacts for the bus ministry. We usually do. I love working with the kids, they are all special. I am glad I attend a church that believes in outreach!

Just another day.....

I really do not have much to write about. I just got back from bus calling. I'm encouraged by the number of kids that was home. We are having VBS next week, so I hope we have a good turnout!
Life is going good. Just getting adjusted to changes and being single again. All the emotions and feelings you go through, is just crazy. I have had enough heartache for awhile.
I am still babysitting. Haven't gotten a "real" job, yet. I am still praying about it. I really am hoping that I get the one at the hospital, but it has been a week since I've had my interview. So, who knows!!
It' hard to believe that summer is going by so fast! Anyway, hope you have a wonderful weekend!! :)

Falling in Love

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some loves grow and it is a mystery why some loves fail.
You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do any more than to take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is something more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body, love is something more than the sum of interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so, too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.
Sometimes-hopefully at least once in your life-the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all its inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.
When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather an accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.
They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong with them that makes the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small thing were different love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say if they go far away and start a new life together their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways they live in a sea of misery.
You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with a person who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other persons heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love him or her, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantages, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how love will deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are very different.
If you fall in love with another and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time, but time itself will choose the moment.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.
All you can really do is accept it for all it's mysteries when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who seem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.
This is where so many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled with love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
In the first blush of new love they are filled to overflowing, but as their love cools they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead of someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow by giving it away.
Remember this and keep it in your heart. Love has its own times, its own seasons, and its own reasons for coming and going. You cannon bribe it or coerce it or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave, from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and nothing you should do.
Love has always been and will always be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again.

By: Kent Nerbum

Changes

A lot has went on in my life, since the last time I blogged. Some changes you can see and some you cannot. God has been working in my life! Some of it only I know about, and some of it others can see!
The last week has been hard. I had some decisions to make! I had been praying for a long time about some of them. And, I wanted an answer from God. I did not want to make a mistake, so it had to be very clear and plain for me. And, it was. Even though it was hard, I had a peace and I finally knew what I had to do. God is good!
Anyway, summer is almost over. I am seriously dreading going back to school. That is another scary, unknown part of my life. But, it is also exciting. I am trusting the Lord to help and to give strength.
I am still looking for a job. I had an interview last Thursday. I am really hoping that it will work out. I would love to work there and I think it'd be a good opportunity for me. I am still doing babysitting for right now. I am very thankful that I least have some sort of income coming in. :) Hope y'all have a wonderful week!!