It's been forever since I have blogged! A lot of water has went under the bridge! I finally purchased a car after many weeks of endless searching. I am happy with my purchase. It's cute, compact car.. And, it gets great gas mileage!! :)
My relationship status has changed. I am dating again. I would not have maybe planned it this way or would have ever guessed it would happen this way. I can't say it was easy at first. I had a lot of emotions, feelings, memories, and etc to work through and still do. Breaking up with someone is never easy no matter if it is the right thing to do. Even though I was as ready for it as I possibly could be. I knew it the breakup was coming, but it doesn't erase the hurt or the guilt that I felt. I felt so guilty for hurting someone. Especially, after I started dating so soon again. I struggled and wrestled with it, I did not want to hurt him or his family more than I already had. But, I can not choose God's timing or how He works. Why Stan and I did not get together at a different time I don't know? Why I did not agonize and do some real soul searching about my past relationship earlier? I know that it was when I truly came home and got away that I did some praying. I had been troubled for awhile though.
I literally feel like my last year and half has been on the biggest roller coaster of my life. My security has been ripped away. I have fears that I am trying to overcome and the Devil fights. But, God has been faithful!! His Word encourages me! Listening to good Christian music has been an great encouragement. I receive strength from attending church and mingling with other believers! I am blessed!
Keep me in your prayers!

Psalms 73: 25 - 26
Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon the earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.