Conversations Around Me

I'm the new kid on the block at work. I usually sit at my desk do my work, make my rounds, and talk to the nurses when I need their help. I usually sit here and mind my own business.. But, my ears are listening to all the conversations that go on at the nurses station. I here of women who have financial woes, marriage woes, ex-husband woes, children woes, and the list goes on. I guess the woe that is talked about a lot is the ex-husband or relationship woe. How you can be so happy and in love on your wedding day then you end up 4 kids later with no love toward each other. I guess I wonder how this happens. How do you let your marriage go? Did you really mean your vows to begin with? Are you the kind of women that attracts that kind of man? What are you not telling about youself? There is always two sides to every story!! With my upcoming marriage I tune into the conversation more. I know I'm marrying a good, Godly, moral man who loves me and will keep the vows we make before God. I know I will keep the vows I make before God with His help. So, I feel more confident coming into my marriage then the average gal. I have the good Lord Jesus on my side.

Tonight I'm writing from behind my desk at work. I am trying to pass the time since tonight is a quiet, slow night. Hopefully, I don't jinx myself. We aren't allowed to say the "q" word while at work. Anyway, I just did. I am getting adjusted and doing well. My life consist of work, sleep, wedding, work, sleep, wedding, and occassionally something fun or exciting. I've been working a lot which is cool since it keeps me busy and I desperately need the money. I very much enjoy my job.. That makes all the difference. I can't imagine working the hours and shifts that I do if I didn't enjoy my job. I don't always feel like going into work.. But, that is nothing new under the sun!

Change, Change, & More Change

Oh! My life has had so many changes in the last week! Whew! I moved from parents house, moved 8 hours away, living in a new town where I know nobody, moved into an apartment, started a new job, and I think that is it. I am slowly getting adjusted! Work and wedding keeps me very busy and occupied so I don't have time to think upon the startling realization of how much my world has changed. I do tend to find myself very homesick especially on the nights when I'm not working and by myself. I miss my hometown, my parents, and my church so much it hurts. Yet, I moved to VA to spend my life with the most amazing man on the planet. So this whole situation ends up being bittersweet! I am very proud of myself for this big accomplishment. I would not have been able to do this last year due to my illness and severe depression. Even though all this change has made me slightly depressed and I'm slightly worried about slipping into that awful dark place again. But so far I'm doing great. Just one day at a time. We are only guaranteed the time we have right now so make the best of it!